“Sometimes you just have to step back and take another look at your life.”
As I was taking a calming walk on the streets of Bali today I began looking at this journey I’m on from a whole other perspective. Over the years I’ve shared my best work around healing anxiety which includes the mindsets, the skills, the epiphanies, and I truly believe that I’ve done and am doing good work for the sake of every anxiety warrior out there. I celebrate with others when they’re sharing their progress with me, and intuitively guide the ones struggling as best I can.
A life’s mission that is incredibly exciting to get up for each and everyday!
But I began pondering a bigger question, how did this all come about? Was it sheer luck? Was it hard work? Was it some kind of infinite intelligence that I once prayed to that fulfilled my wishes? To this day it’s hard for me to pinpoint the answer because it’s truly un-answerable. I can have an opinion as to how I’ve gained the knowledge while simultaneously creating a tribe of anxiety sufferers ready to heal (on YouTube, Podcasts, and Facebook), but how much of that opinion is true?
Since our opinions are dictated by our emotional states in that moment, our values, beliefs, past decisions, memories etc I don’t think it’s possible to know how I actually tapped into my true purpose for this lifetime
What this has taught me is that we don’t need all the answers. Heck, we don’t need the majority of them! I used to look at myself as an idiot if I couldn’t find a solution to someones challenge or my own questions, until I didn’t. I started labeling myself as human, rather than pathetic, and that completely changed the path my life was on. The important answers we seek don’t necessarily show up when our minds are analytical and full, they show up when we least expect them to show up.
If you think all this Anxiety Guy content is due to my studying the arts of CBT, NLP, Hypnosis, Energy Psychology or other methods, you’re wrong
It’s kind of like planting a seed and having the faith that it will grow into something. My walk today taught me to be even more imperfect, more childish, and more unique, a true anxiety warrior. I felt more permission to flow with life ups and downs rather than fight for what my ego felt I should fight for. Now that’s a fight that will NEVER end, I don’t care how good you feel about yourself temporarily.
I realized that I’m not happy all the time, and that’s ok, because that’s real. It’s a part of a system within me that I have plenty of control over, but sometimes not so much. I realized that sometimes I get sad, and that’s ok, why else would god install this emotion within us? It must serve a purpose just like all our other emotions, and we must feel them all in order to grow and evolve, right?
Every anxiety warrior out there should hold up a white flag and surrender to themselves
Surrender to the thing you’re trying to alter and change at a frantic pace, with little luck. Bruce Lee said it beautifully when he said ‘have the courage to be disliked’ which is another sign of surrendering to the external, what freedom that level of life is, wow! The only limits we have are the ones we place on ourselves, and maybe you carry these beliefs within you now, such as:
- ‘You can’t teach an old dog new tricks.’
- ‘Life is short.’
- ‘Healing doesn’t show up over night!’
First of all you CAN teach an old ‘dog’ new tricks, life isn’t short if you live it the right way, and healing CAN show up over night but you’re not even giving yourself a chance because you’ve been saying this to yourself for years now. Open your mind up to something new about yourself and the world, you won’t regret it but you will face resistance I can assure you that, and that’s ok. Here’s a video on why the brain is rejecting your anxiety healing journey, it’s a vital listen.
Where do you go from here?
You take a step back, that’s for one. And you can begin by ridiculing those ridiculous beliefs you hold about yourself and why the world is so scary. Deep within you there’s a voice longing to be heard. A voice that wants to experience life in the present, rather than looking to a future goal before it can be happy again. We’re always waiting to live, waiting for the raise, the vacation, the person, the blah blah blah, and when it comes it lasts a few minutes before we find ourselves wanting again.
What misery, what guilt, what inner pain for every anxiety warrior out there.
Stop wanting, start experiencing. Experience the fulness of your 5 senses now, I mean when was the last time you asked yourself ‘what’s fun about this?’ I’m sure it’s been a while because you’ve been too consumed with the question of ‘what’s the potential disaster because of this?’ I’ve been there, I developed anxiety on auto-pilot, and I know what it’s like to create emotional distress without any effort. Realize that the opposite can also be true. Inner peace can replace anxiety once and for all, and the anxiety warrior doesn’t have to come out in spurts, but can last a life time. That’s what my walk taught me today. ❤️❤️❤️